Life gets busy and overwhelming
sometimes. It gets to the point where you want to throw in the towel and say,
“I’m done! That’s it! I can’t do this anymore!” You have 1,042 things to do and
they’re all eating away at you, making you more stressed out and even more
irritable than you were before.
That’s why we have friends!
I was talking to my mom the other
day about how thankful I am for the friends in my life and all the great people
I have. They help me not only get through the day sometimes, but they support
me with my music and reaching my goals. I wonder how they put up with me... or
WHY… but I don’t think too hard about it because, they’re here for me, no
questions asked.
I love that.
I know for an absolute fact that
I’m the craziest, weirdest, strangest person ever sometimes… but my friends put
up with that, and that’s pretty neat. Without these people I would be utterly
insane, bonkers, derailed. With music being my primary outlet for expressing my
feelings, my friends are my other source for letting my emotions run free like
wild horses. (cue rolling stones song going through your head right now.) I can tell them my secrets, where as if I
wrote a song about those same secrets I might be taken to some sort of
specialist. My brain works in mysterious ways, I tell you. Not even I
understand it sometimes. The mechanics of my thoughts are to be understood by
God alone, and it should stay like that.
Anyways, I truly am one blessed
individual to be able to have these close knit friends that I consider like family.
I’m an only child, so it does get
lonely to an extent sometimes, but my parents have always been there to keep me
entertained. I think I’m extremely lucky to be able to call my mom my best
friend, and she calls me hers. God gave my mom me to be there for her, to talk
to her, and to be a friend to her, and I take that very seriously. I would do ANYTHING
for my mom… just like I would do anything for any of my other friends. She
means the world to me and I love being there for her. My favorite thing on this
planet is when we sit and talk for hours about deep, life stuff. Like, people
that are put in our lives to teach us patience, and what the world would be
like without certain things, or how certain relationships happen only to teach
us a lesson, not to stay with us for the rest of our lives. She’s a genius
sometimes, I swear. I go to her with any of my troubles and I walk away with a
new understanding. Sure, I get mad at my mom but who doesn’t. She is the true
rock in my life and I have absolutely no clue on God’s green earth what I would
do without her. I’d be a hopeless fool.
Also, whenever people tell me,
especially people younger than me, that their parents are annoying them or
making them mad about something, I say that I understand, but to not get upset
with them. Take what they have to say and do what they tell you to do. Being in
college now, I miss my parents so much, and I look back and appreciate all the
things they told me and taught me. I was angry with them, yes, and I still do
get aggravated with them, but I’m thankful for the way I was raised. I’m strong
and independent because of them. They taught me to stand up for myself and to
be firm in my beliefs. They showed me how to not be intimidated by others, and
that giving into peer pressure won’t make you fit in, it will only make you
like everyone else, which is something you don’t want to be. Standing out in
the crowd is strangely satisfying. Because you are different, people want to
know who you are. If you look like everyone else in the crown and do what they
crowd does, no one cares who you are or what your name is. You’re just a person
in a crowd. Plain and simple.
When I was younger I always had the
idea set in my head that my parents were way too strict. While sometimes I
still agree it would have been nice to let the reigns looser a few times, I’m
thankful I wasn’t able to do whatever I pleased. Not like I would have six
tattoos or a drinking problem or anything, but I would have gotten into a lot
more dumber stuff than I had if I didn’t have them watching over me. Nothing
good happens past like, 11pm in this town, so I get where they were coming
from. They wanted to keep me safe and protect me from the world and it’s tiny
hidden evils.
Speaking of my mom though, it’s her
birthday tomorrow and I want to do something awesome for her but I have no idea
what to do. I could write her a song but, I’ve done that already. Or I could
write a poem, but I’ve done that already too. I’ve made her larger than life
cards and drawn and painted her many pictures, so what’s left?! I was thinking
plane tickets to Nashville… that way the whole family can reap the benefits of
my generous gift (insert cool sunglass emoji here). I think I’d be considered
the best daughter ever… just saying.
Anyways, friends are beautiful
people that we must never take advantage of. I always try my absolute hardest
to keep in close contact with my friends, and sometimes I fail at this, but the
ones that forgive me, or understand that I have a busy lifestyle, are the ones
worth keeping around. I tend to do this thing where I fall off the face of the
earth and I forget to text people back and call them and email them, but that’s
just me. It’s who I am. I honestly forget EVERYTHING which is awful, I know,
but sometimes there’s just nothing I can do about it. When someone gets mad at
me for not talking to them for a week I’m honestly hurt by that. I say I’m
sorry, because I really am, but then I almost want an apology in return. I
realize I haven’t talked to you but you need to realize that I just completely
blanked and needed time to myself for a while. It’s normal to want to be
solitary for a little while. When people get mad at me for that, it makes me pretty
blue to be honest. I get over it though, because I like to live a happy lifestyle.
I never hold grudges and forgive always, because if you hold bitterness and bad
blood with people, you’re bound to end up unhappy and bliss-less. That’s not
cool!
Happiness is key to everything in
life. If you are happy, then the people around you are happy. Your mood affects
the ones surrounding you. If you’re upset and angry at the world and giving off
an attitude to everyone you come in contact with, they all will take your
attitude and apply it to themselves and go on with the rest of their day acting
like big ol’ cranks, just like you. Don’t do that to people! Smile at everyone,
say thank you to everyone, look people in the eye and mean what you say. It
will rub off and the world around you will be such a happy place. Not even a
rain storm could dull your sunshine. (I sounded lame there, I get it) But I’m
trying to prove a point, if you’re happy, I’m happy, your whole life will be
happy, and the world will be a happy place. Yay! Sunshine and sprinkles and
unicorns and happy stuff…
Ok, enough with sounding like a six
year old… I’m going to attempt to tie this whole thing together. It’s like
those conversations where you start talking about one thing and end up on
something totally different and you look at the other person like what the actual
heck were we talking about in the first place…
So, in concluding all my thoughts
into one thought; I’m so thankful that I have the relationship with my parents
that I do, and am even more blessed to have friends that are like family to me,
which in turn make me the happiest person on the planet. Then throw in something
about it being my mom’s birthday and me having terrible forgetfulness. There! I
think I did it!
I’m actually impressed with myself.
Anyways, I hope you guys are all
doing swell and leading good, happy, healthy lives. THIS TIME I SERIOUSLY
PROMISE TO KEEP UP WITH MY BLOGS. It’s summer now and all of my time is
dedicated to my music and everything associated with this career that I love so
much.
Have a wonderful, happy day.
Love you much.
-Madeline
I love you Madeline <3
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