When life gives you lemons.. make lemonade.
But what about when life gives you lemons, cucumbers, apples, sixteen books, writers block, and a whole new life in general?
..good question.
I’m back, I know everyone was so worried as to where I had gone. Thank you for your concern, but I was being pulled in 6,000 directions with my CD release, a trip to New York City, and a brand new start at the University of St. Thomas. I am finally settling down for about 5.2 seconds, so I can fill everyone in on the life of Madeline Consoer.
I went to New York, as I stated above. That was amazing to say the least. There was enough experiences there to last me a life time. But if a lifetime of experiences isn’t enough, I’m now a full time college student and loving all the new people I’m meeting and all the new things I’m being introduced to.
Before I get ahead of myself though, let us hit the rewind button on life real quick. Let’s see, before I got to New York, something very devastating happened… I contracted writers block.
It’s a very serious disease us song writers would rather do without. Since I had it though, dealing with it was a formality. Everywhere I went I took a journal with me, writing a verse here, a chorus there, but nothing was complete. I would start a song and really love it, but then the words would stop coming to mind and the melody would fade from my brain, and I would get upset, and angry, and I’d quit everything I was doing and go work out or something like that, just to take my mind off of things. Without my songwriting going smoothly, my life is so ho-hum. I feel so average, (not that average is a bad thing) I just know I am not destined to be average.
Life carried on though, I released my EP on iTunes, amazon, spotify, pretty much every single music site there is, and also had a release party. (this is suppose to spark this little inkling inside of you who are reading this to go get my album on iTunes, just saying.) The release party was amazing to say the least, seeing as it was also my 19th birthday! I had way too much fun and I wish everyday of my life could be like that! Everyone that came to support me was so kind, I really felt like I was loved and my music was just as appreciated. It made my whole life pretty much.
Then came the trip to New York City! Wow. If you don’t think that that is one of the coolest cities in America, than you have some blockage or something in your brain. It was absolutely amazing there. The people, the culture, the buildings, the sights, everything blew my mind. Why did I trek all the way to the Big Apple you may ask? Well, to try out for the voice of course! I waited in line for endless amounts of hours, doing nothing but just that, waiting. Waiting is not the easiest thing in the world either, you just stand and look around and tap your foot and twiddle your thumbs and lick your lips and push your hair out of your eyes and spin on your heal and hum songs and stare at random people till they give you dirty looks and maybe do some jumping jacks to keep the blood flowing and possibly break out into the electric slide.. just kidding about that one, but waiting is torturous. Especially when so much is on the line. Especially, when you don’t even get on the show in the first place so all your waiting was virtually pointless. I did not make it on the voice, but I learned a very valuable lesson.. don’t wear really high heals if you’re going to be doing a whole bunch of waiting. And that’s that. (I also learned how to better handle rejection, that’s probably more important actually…)
So after doing all that pretty neat stuff, I started doing more neat stuff, like starting college. I moved all my things into the dorm, said goodbye to my parents (I cried, yes) and then started life on my own. It was scary at first, yes, but now I’m finally getting the hang of it. It takes time to meet people, and it took time for me to realize that people have no idea who I am here, they don’t care who I am or what I’ve done. I’m just another face in the crowd, just another college student. It’s intimidating. All these people looking at me because I am now an unfamiliar face. That doesn’t stop me though. It shouldn’t stop anybody. When no body knows your name or who you are, look at it as if it is a clean slate. No body knows you! You could make up a new name for yourself if you wanted to, because no body knows your real name! Just kidding.. don’t do that. Use it as a platform to build your social standing. Do better than you’ve ever done before. Impress more people than you’ve ever impressed. Meet more people than you’ve ever met. Do new and exciting things, and whatever you do, never look back. This is your life now, your new and exciting life.
I’ve already taken advantage of this. I’ve met so many cool people, I love it. I’ve made new connections and new friends that I never would have met before. I’ve joined a worship group where we sing praise to Jesus and worship and pray to him every Wednesday night. Also, I joined the band that plays the music. Why not use my talent for the one who gave it to me in the first place? It makes perfect sense to me, doing that just seemed like a more than perfect fit. I joined a rock climbing club that kicks my butt every Monday and Thursday night. But just because all these positive things are happening.. doesn’t mean that everything going on is so holly-jolly.
People are negative, and people are going to hurt you, and you can never avoid it. It’s tough out here in the real world and a part of me wishes I’d have known about more of it before I plunged head-first into it. People are mean, and they don’t care about anything else but the betterment of themselves. I believe some peoples hobbies include putting others down, picking on people who they believe are of lesser value to them, and making others feel terrible about themselves. It’s in their nature, and that’s how life goes. Always look for the positive in these types of people though. Sure it sucks that they’re words are so brutal and their actions are so heartless, but what they supply you with, no one could ever just hand you; thick skin. Treasure who you are. Don’t let anybody make you feel less. Especially because you are never less in the eyes of Jesus.
This brings me to what I’d like to end with. I wrote a song!! Yes, the writers block has temporarily subsided for the time being, and while I was sitting in my dorm learning how to somewhat play the guitar, I came up with a song too! It’s up on you tube so you should probably watch it. It’s called Wonderful Wonders and it’s this story about, well, pretty much my new life at college. It’s about new beginnings and not worrying about what other people think of you. It’s about being your own person and standing up for what you believe in. I hope that when you take the time to listen to it, you take something out of it also (besides the fact that I look like I just woke up in the video and can’t play the guitar too hot yet). I want you to listen to the words and think about how you’re living your life. Are you simply just trying to fit in with everyone else, or are you actually trying to stand out and do what makes you happy? I hope you do what makes your soul happy and your face shine like it has little sun beams coming out of it.
You guys are amazing. Sorry I fell behind and didn’t write for a while, but I promise I’ll be here more often now. Love you all!!
God Bless
-Madeline
